I’m quite honored that my haiku collection, Overpacked for the Afterlife, made the short list for a Touchstone Award from The Haiku Foundation!
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Fragment 35
wanted. And I wanted all
the toys. There was always
some commercial or catalogbase of this house here you see where the original foundation was laid and this line is where builders had some kind of cozy dream 100 to 150 years later or it may have been a fire or perhaps something we have no language for or understanding of and so if you look and keep looking we can steadily unravel how the building grew from egg to newt through adolescence to senescence not of course quite the same as looking at an old tree its dependable circles always circling but perhaps like a person in that we do sometimes grab
that would feed my greed for
new garbage. And even if I had gotten
all of it, would I have felt any better? I think wehold to the love of a season and bolt it on to ourselves hoping it might give us another internal closet a bigger bathroom a better view past those irritating neighbors from a tastefully ornate balcony but we also need to be aware of what we’re building towards and what our foundations are made of but yes maybe it would be simpler to keep the trees in mind and start the whole thing over from the roots or look at the growth of a quartz crystal if it’s a particularly dark day with some drizzle in which you want to
know the answer. And then I think,
in the past, when I’ve gotten something
I had desperately wanted the excitementfeel a bit of brightness at your core the feeling that you too could become someone on your chosen stage and when you speak people drop their phones and look in your direction maybe our example needs a quantum of precision in order to neatly fit in the hole left by the puzzle pieces whose homes we have already discovered the right void needs the right bit of the garden shed and that tiny edge of cloud that makes it pop and the deeper green of the grass in the background however we must start here in the mottled foreground
wore off quickly. So I don’t know that I can blame
my childhood. Maybe this is the way I’m builtwhere we stand and the simplest way to go about is sometimes all we need I think well no one likes a know-it-all and that fact has led to irreparable wounds and bruises yes all self-inflicted but what is it that you fear some unkind remark or the sound of nothing who can blame you but somehow we have to find a way to keep letting the world know that we’re here and still waiting for the secondary elaboration as promised in several recent communications so can we touch base on that first thing Monday morning please and thank you
or programmed or whatever. But no
matter what the cause, I have to face
and come to terms with it.[And click here if you’d like to take the plunge.]
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Fragment 23
I want to take a break and I think that helps. One thing that’s been irritating me this week is a case of cracked lips.
why do you ask oh I see well yes that’s fair maybe that should be my catchphrase but in that tree no that one over there you’ll see the bird that stole a jewel from your hair you assumed you’d never see him again but that tiny hat is unmistakeable unless things have taken another strange turn in the woods I suppose nothing would be too surprising these days but you’re right we should pretend not to see him we don’t want any trouble this forenoon so here we come to the stone ruin the information plaque is badly faded
I think they got chapped or maybe sunburned? I can trace it to when we were eating outside at Valencia last weekend. I had the sun on my face for the whole meal. I don’t know if that’s what did it but that was the last time I remember not
but we can make out a date from the last century and something about a fire and a great experiment that’s mostly the story of all of our lives isn’t it if only there were something steady to stand on instead of these slimy rocks but then beneath they work day and night perfecting pestos and symphonies guarding eggs and their tender young they scatter when the rock is lifted though I know we won’t do anything quite so cruel today will we I can see that glint in your eye when you’ve had your last cup of tea and
the dog is curled up snoring beside you when the world seems a word of calm between breaths and pick up your book while we wait for the apocalypse that is taking its sweet time think of that person whose death will give you wings but if we don’t find that inspiring perhaps we can review the correct pronunciations of the latest drugs and open that box they asked us to keep safe and sealed what’s the worst that could happen of course it’s just a slight song from the dinky walnut deep inside your brain or deep inside the
forest which is the analogy we’ll use for your mind brain included at no cost though skip the extended warranty if you oh you have money to burn well burn away who am I to stop you I just feel so tired so unable to there comes a time when you think perhaps the rotten floorboards should be replaced before we lose another guest in a sudden collapse and have to clean the carpets yet again I know we should have dealt with it centuries ago but time being what it is and our hands what they are the moment
having a problem with my lips. I’ve tried to use some lip balm a few times but I don’t know how much that really helps.
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One more thing…
If you want some tunes, or the specific tunes I was listening to while writing and editing Fragment, here’s the playlist:
or
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If I’m honest I would like to see her
suffer. I won’t try to justify why
but if you had met her but never mind.The imp inside these rust-colored caverns
whispers to the red river and dark clouds
creep behind the lens that pictures red morered more and more laughs laughs that echo
smaller and smaller in a bare room
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I’ve been cutting, editing, re-editing, cutting some more, massaging, threatening, coddling, encouraging, &c. this book I’ve been working on.
We’ve both been through a lot.
But I think we’re getting there.
Anyway, here’s a chunk of it…
we imagine our selves as rushing through though these crumbled things need their own slow time as a plant in a pot but in the forest from the slipperiest slime mold to the always hungry deer to the most sturdy studious generous genial old oak and all the families it supports the water that runs off the leaves through tiny rivulets rolling down over rocks and aerial roots to river arms and off out of our little story where I feel a need to prod and poke make my fingers dirty cutting and clipping grafting fertilizing in a place like
this self-publishing business is that you’re so alone. But I guess that’s true no matter what kind of writing or whatever you try. All the same, it is lonely and that isolation sometimes makes one doubt the whole endeavor and more. That said, I do believe in the work, though
this and for a purpose I should not speak about openly like digging up a seedling to check its progress let’s hope that the ground in me is fed well enough and that the wildflowers weeds and insects flowing up and out know to dance when the time is right for the red orange yellow paisley beach towel that’s now a blanket for the dog in bright autumn sun the breeze still with warmth rummages though the kitchen where pickles bubble to the front door where mail waits to be recycled the little table with keys dog bags and other
things to grab before one leaves next to the bench for shoes near the stairs where we hung two scrolls from Kyoto two tiny paintings from Queensland and two astronomical prints outside the bathroom which was recently redone and the tour continues upstairs but not into our bedroom where we have three walnuts carved with dozens of very small Buddhas and a somewhat dusty singing bowl the little nightstands we bought years and many apartments ago in the reclaimed furniture shop that closed down during the middle height of the pandemic did I manage to answer your question that time
sometimes I feel I’m still hammering out a voice and style. With my previous stream of consciousness prose poems, I’ve enjoyed writing them, but I’m not sure if anyone else was really interested. But I am intrigued by the possibilities of the form and sometimes it surprises me. The way
we followed him without a thought without a word despite the cold air and our unsuitably thin pants what else could we do the song he sang moved our feet swayed the trees the very stones but no that’s too much up and down and down and up through rocky mountainside the long way around skirting the boggy pond collecting the colors of leaves the tiny mushrooms on fallen trees despite the fragrant muck densely gathered on our shoes his song’s long melodies and intricate yet easy phrases remained pure in our unworthy ears as the stars swam before us
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in dark before dawn just above
a little dog green yellow light
off on again in corkscrew paths
over hosta and brown lawn blinkbefore
these small legs running from light to
flying light in summer’s sleepy
sticky arms didn’t know why I
needed this brightness in my hand
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always starting new epics but never
finishing and the work somehow better
for it. The bastardbut how do you talk to that hateful child?
He turns every knife into praise and gold
for his flaking skinnot enough is made of his resolve to
deny the diagnosis at every
opportunity.They say that those under the southern stars
rarely fish but rely on the viscous
writhing things wrestled from clouds.
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Happy solstice!
Today I’m giving away free kindle editions of my haiku collection, Overpacked for the Afterlife. This promotion is for today only, so get it while it’s hot.
Happy Holidays!
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Free book!
This Thursday, the 21st, I’m giving away free kindle editions of my haiku collection, Overpacked for the Afterlife.
Here’s the link in case you want to check it out. Happy Holidays!
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Here’s a very happy Friday excerpt from Fragment…
would lead you to believe I do appreciate it all and other times I can manage a laugh that wiggles out from under tons of earth in which I tried to dance but perhaps soon I can emerge though the soil is cool and cruel though maybe I’ll stay here with the low rumble of worms and voles in my ears and make a home no matter what they dump on top of me or how the plates collide one day this dump could be a mountain range higher than the Himalayas with me pressed between an ancient deli meat
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Here’s another section from Fragment…
and our time is up so please throw the book mark away and reabsorb the book the queue for rebriefing will be on your right and the airlock two doors down on the left and you may enter there if you have the proper stamp but no we haven’t always been so formal you know back when the place was run by the gazelles there were trees growing in all the courtyards and curious snakes and lemurs feasting on the various fruits that dropped all year round while we learned the vocabulary if not the grammar of the mighty river
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A special Samhain section of Fragment…
it’s certainly not the worst assignment you’ll ever get just wait until they ask you to pluck the legs of another cicada from between their teeth you’ll want to go back to using a toothpick to dislodge the dirt from the fingernails of our fresh corpses and find a way to harness that moisture before the reluctant clouds encircle the city once more as they slowly waft from the mouth of a lost puppet by way of the mouths of several mice who had feasted on the rusted flesh of a half-eaten apple in the dust of a reluctant decision
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Here’s an excerpt from my upcoming book-length prose poem travel essay surrealistic self-consuming self-creating experimental nonsense-adjacent work Fragment:
for you they reluctantly offer a handful of change and assume your bones are their bones but that time is running out or so we have foretold in our heated meetings behind the Dairy Queen scooping frozen sweetness from a disposable cup while we smirk and cheer ourselves on in plans that don’t have a Y’s chance in an X’s Z to come to anything but sometimes the planning is enough sometimes that’s where you find out who your true co-conspirators are and who the moles might be of course we’ve never actually skinned one as our newsletter heavily implies
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fetid wind from the belch of the cave
dweller’s Tupperware(First published in The Pan Haiku Review.)
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Fragment
The next book that I’ll be sharing with the world is called Fragment. It’s something I did for NaNoWriMo last year and have been trying to hammer into shape as a long prose poem.
Here’s the so-called advertisement that I’ve cooked up to give you a sense of the so-called book that I’m writing:
an ad for Fragment might say something like is it a travel diary dream drama recently re-earthed and translated into 500 englishish paragraphs of 100 words for a novel-related poem-adjacent self-portrait our hero of glues glues together with gold insomnia and a car alarm that produces unnameable small flowers of late early spring as it reforms itself with itself you may choose to avoid this hero’s journey of course you should refuse at least twice but in the crepuscular aching beneath the sofa who talks like this anyway or wherever you hear this please come inside it looks like cats
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Sonnet
in what may have been a park weeds
without flowers climb white clouds cling
to the mountain an open wound
that won’t stop oozing broken mouths
growl in rusted junk chain-link yardsthe town gets smaller with every
breath though they never think to bite
the hands that keep them in cages
while kids throw stones at a hornet’s
nest dream of pills and lotterywins and the dog no longer feels
the chain that choked his younger daysand those who ran away still see
themselves mirrored in cracked black stone
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Overpacked for the Afterlife

Hey everybody! I am very happy to announce a collection of my haiku has just been published. I hope you enjoy it!
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Sonnet
but what we got was some sequel
made for the merchandising rights
so let’s instead unpack this strange
light after a summer storm near
evening with its light bouquet of
back pain—in those glowing clouds you
could believe the benevolent
aliens might pop down for tea
and cake and perhaps slip you a
few space-time secrets but they fail
to arrive again so climb to
bed and nudge the little dog from
her pillow throne and sink and sigh
chest collapsed but eyes on the sky
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Sonnet
having made peace with the rocks that
I call shoes, grown accustomed to
the furry creatures living in
my sinuses and the shows they
watch into the deep oven nightI watch one fork of lightning free
the tree that dropped only small sour
fruit, and return to arranging
oyster shells to resemble a
wave and ask is this the dream it’sso quiet here it’s hard to hear
the song of my empty stomach
or the rattle of the bones of
the dead like pills stuck in my throat
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early evening early in the death thinking about death all day the video game deaths I played the music death all the death TV shows the same even if they try to death it my back still sore but better death than the dog deaths her new toy
and no I never did get around to that I gave up on connection and went down paths they warned me about to make blurred photocopies of those same mistakes my hands stumbling fat then thin leaves fell and grew the early sun in winter faithfully rendered in Minecraft reddened the tips of things in a neighborhood or that or this heavy frenemy in my chest sometimes makes his strange will speak
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Sonnet
what prize did you hope to hold in those smooth
hands for the plan sketched in cloud and unbuilt—
what melody might have flown forth if you
freed yourself from petty politics of
the boardroom and tested those scrawny wings—
but you sat with a job safe as socks and
a single number near the cold solsticenow in the damp the aches where you bend while
those black glacier teeth topple in tepid
tea you mumble to the cat it wasn’t
all bad these bloody feet could still march this
hand salute the lurking shadow who smiles
at the coughing cubicle dwellers soon
to be churned into cheap fertilizer
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Sonnet
sweet voices in a mist-filled wood like a memory of the moon just a few drops of blood from your yearly broken back and you can play until fat with all the things this difficult crossword puzzle doesn’t attract me now that some grey has snuck in so why not stay I lost my train of thought again but with the mental gps installed it was no problem to rejoin and then pick from one of the available choices and at last enter new star city
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Sonnet In Which the Last Two Lines Have Shipped But Are Running Late
do you clap when it arrives in crumpled
corrugated cardboard dropped on the steps
of your demand and expectation—me?
I long to hear the soft song of
the box cutter the little sigh
as light uncovers the gifts of darknessbut enough of my many weaknesses
let’s upgrade our kitchens hats and bookshelves
lounge in the recycled air gulp supplements
unthinking of the debt and folks living
in fire and try to laugh since we never
got the hang of writing protest songs
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Sonnet
since the selfie came out blurry
giving that mosquito my cheek
to suck its snack while the old crows
guffawed my self-promotion by
the abandoned railroad tracks may
not have been my finest momentso in this phlegmy rain I wait
for the final ferry and this
may be the encephalitis
talking but I feel I grow fat
or waste on the food of strangers’thumbs as I grope
in the dark for
a light so you
can learn my name
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please ask me to
kill for you ask
me to imprint
each foot with the
ridges of my
best teeth ask me
to comb the clouds
into candy
for the joy of
toothless trash cans
throughout the land
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Sonnet
skimmed emails we deleted too quickly
may have mentioned the forest of bright spears
and ships ready to launch, but once we saw the
reports on the quarterly report from
Ichthyosaur & Associates we
had no doubt what they were up to with those
color-shifting lobbyists and gift baskets
reeking of brine and though they wrote of missed
opportunities no one missed the flotsam
flecked with blood, tossed by ceaseless waves that could
break on our belovèd beans just learning
to climb towards those heavy clouds pierced by sun—he stopped, mumbled something roses fingers
dawn and walked away from the empty chairs
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The Carrier of Ladders
Poems by W. S. MerwinDISCARD
Ferguson Library
Date DueJun – 3 1975
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